...and so it begins...

So first, wow, i haven't blogged since my free open diary days in high school. I"m gonna tell you the good, the bad, the ugly, and everything in between. I"m not here for pity, for praise, or for anything like an ulterior motive. I'm here because i'm not ready for a therapist and I can't help but want to tell my story somehow. My name is Becca, I'm 24 years old, and I am a writer/stylist. I've had the furthest thing from a normal like you could possibly imagine. Haven't we all?? Now i can sit here and tell you all the grizzly details and you can take these posts as you will, or i can just tell my perspective and you can put your own twist to my story. Hell, maybe i'll do both. So here are the basics. As i said, i'm 24 years old. I have a beautiful daughter named Isabelle Lynn, and she is the twist of fate that has kept me on this earth, and always will be. I am a recovering addict, I've had a struggle with drugs since i was 15, and everyday is a battle. Addiction is a horrible disease that will haunt me for the rest of my life. I am also manic-depressive, so some of these posts will be happy-go-lucky, and others will be the so far from positive that it will make you crazy. 

I decided to start another blog because two of my very close friends told me that it would be therapeutic. I had a blog before and i loved it, there were times that my writing has given me purpose, and i think it can save me again. Honestly this is going to be an introduction, and really wont tell you much about me at all. I'm not asking anyone to be interested, hell, half or all of you (the whole three people that might actually read it) already know me so there isn't much more to tell, is there? I'm going to do my best to keep up with this, and i will be as truthful and honest as i would in a therapist chair. I'm done hiding, done pretending, and done with all the pain,guilt, and associated feelings of a broken home, and a shattered family. This is me doing what i feel is best, and if I fall on my face, then so be it. However if i thrive and flourish, that would be fantastic. Writing is what i feel i do best, along with hair. I have so many hair designs that its hard to keep up. I am a very self expressive person, and i feel that its only healthy to express myself in every way possible. That's why i started writing. To not only express myself, but to let out some of what i was feeling, and share one hell of a story with the world. Some of it is lost, some has been published, and i hope to have my next work published within the next year.
 I am an extremely emotional person I've been told that my emotions make my decisions for me, and that can be taken as both a good and a bad thing. I suppose I feel like i have plenty to be emotional about, others might say i'm just a big baby. As the youngest of four girls thats not so hard to do. That, in itself, is another blog entirely. So i close with this. I will do my best to keep you interested, though that's not my main purpose. I've been told i should write a book, so i guess i'm about to start the outline on this page.